We're okay...

Thank goodness!! We talked, cried, sat in silence, he went out with Molly for the afternoon and when he came back, told me he wanted to stick it out (PHEW!) It's weird now, we're like a new couple all over again - which is nice, and I hope that we can work on it and keep it alive - I knew I couldn't walk away on this one, and I couldn't face him walking away on us.
So life is generally a lot happier, might even scrap a little today, it' s much cooler we got 29 yesterday and it was just so hot! Woke up during the night, drenched in sweat - thankfully today it's about 17!

update above!

Rut-Roh

Looks like I could become a solo mum again, this time with two kids. Craig doesn't know what he wants, doesn't know whether he wants to be here with us, or whether he wants to leave. I've cried and we've talked - but at the end of it all, it's got to be his decision. So I wait, numb, throbbing head, till he decides what he wants in life - this seriously bites.

I'm creating an album for a friend who's baby is due in about 3-4 weeks, loads of ideas, but pinning (or sticking) them down is a totally different concept! I think I'm struggling because of the no photo aspect...I'm going to go take pictures of her nursery and her belly (cos I'm not sure she's taken any) and I'll have those in the album when I give it to her....so they'll have to be a bit secret squirel. We had a surprise baby shower for her yesterday and she was so blown away - it was so cool...it's been ages since a baby has been around.

I would've liked to give it for shower, but everyone was so excited about the idea, and we'd only discussed it during last weeks coffee session! I have now run out of green and pink cardstock, so will have to wait until the scrap shops open again before I can continue!

I'm so over this weather too....I'd really like for us to have some summer before the season offically ends! I can't even plan things, cos the weather is so unpredictable!

Oh and I'm over hairly mclary - Molly would have these read all day long if she had her choice, and the wiggles DVD space dancing, she's always loved this DVD when we hired it out, so we thought we'd buy it for her birthday (even though she got it early!) and it's almost played constantly *rolleyes*

Well, I got brave &

submitted some layouts - one place I've heard that they have received the emails, but nothing more (a automated email) and the other nothing....so I'm resigned to the fact that my first submissions were unsuccessful...no surprise there hehe...I've been so moody and down lately that just looking at my desk makes me want to pack it all in and give up, nothing to do with submitting either....just have blocks and I hate it...my stash sucks sometimes and DH generously brought me a scrapping surprise, unfortunately it was that pack that's on TV...yeah, well....oh and the best bit, they don't accept returns....dork. So I'm looking for new mo--jo!!

Isn't that picture cute? Molly is on a huge Hairy Mclary kick, and it's great...though reading the same two books over and over does get some what old...thank goodness her birthday is coming up...will let people know she'd love a hairy maclary book!!

The suit has been successful, up until yesterday...she pooped during the day and did her trick, but in saying that, she comes to me, with only a small amount of poop on her fingers, and says yuck...and last night she managed to get into the suit (don't ask me how, considering it was under pj's...little toad) BUT this morning she got up (at 6.15am!!!) and stood in our door way going yuck....I thought fanfreakingtastic...to deal with that at 6.15am!! BUT she hadn't put her hands in it! Fingers crossed huh??

We'll I'm off...need to shower and get out of this joint...Craig can have the pleasure of Princess Endless Demanding, while I go off and visit two lots of puppies, one lot that our pooch, Bentley is the father of!

erm...one of those days (or is that weeks?)

Molly is testing my patience - she's blown Craigs completely out of the water (hence my title). It's a horrible topic, and it's nasty to deal with - but we are going through it - she's taken to pooping (while in bed, after the night-night routine) and shoving her hands down her nappy (nice huh?)...I just went to check her and she's poop free, but followed me down the hall! Think I'll let her stay up for a bit longer and see if she'll poop while she's up. I need to find one of those all in one swim suits - I think this'll work. Had thought about bodysuits, but they still give easy access around the legs - if it's got the length, like boyshorts, we should be good to go.
So, yeah, Craig and I are in a rocky patch, but in typical fashion, he just doesn't seem aware of it. I'm really tired of having his gloomy cloud dampen my day, his mood is draining - he'll deny anything is wrong, and getting anything out of him is harder than getting blood from a stone! I seriously think we're leading seperate lives - well he is anyway - what life have I got, motherhood!! He's out now - lord knows where. Man this sucks.

January the 6th already - though I have to admit that this week has crawled by, I'm not sure it's because of the weather, or the fact that we've done absolutely nothing - or maybe it's because T'Keyah's been away since Saturday. I am working up the courage to submit to CorrespondenceART, (http://www.correspondenceart.com/submission.html) it's a big step I guess, but I have such a fear of rejection, stupid really but I guess it's all underlying issues that go into it too.
I haven't scrapped once this year, well I tried yesterday afternoon, but because I'm now in the lounge because our house is small - Molly was watching videos (read - watching two seconds ejecting, putting something else in, watches two seconds - repeat repeat repeat) and Craig was waffling about stuff he was surfing on the web, I just couldn't concentrate!! So i went and played Harry Potter on the PS2...I'm at the final stage, and for the life of me I can't kill the dementors - so it'll be another game that I have almost finished! Grrr - LOL.
Today we have a little sunshine - we've had such awful weather this week!! We were out at Craigs parents yesterday afternoon when the thunder and lightening hit (again) and HAIL!! The ground was white!! Crazy - we didn't have this much bad weather during winter. I'd really like some summer back - Molly hasn't even worn her new togs yet, but she's had plenty of use from her umbrella Aunty Suz got her for Christmas! I sure hope it improves soon. Righto, I'd best be off, have to meet Ma at Farmers, they've got 50% off a dolls pram, so she's going to get it for us for Mollys birthday!

Happy New Year

...and it's raining, typical huh - the two days that you can guarantee it'll rain in Dunedin, NewYears and Christmas, and this year it kept the tradition! Though on the plus side, it gave Molly a chance to use her new umbrella that Aunty Suz got for her for Christmas - though my lame photos are damping the whole coolness factor!

I really, really need to learn more about the stupid little camera, and use it to it's best ability, it was by no means cheap, but I still wish we'd waited a little longer and got a rebel or something along those lines - I'd kill for great pictures - Okay, so tonight (or tomorrow) I'll research into the camera and learn more about it, and how to use it better!! I want to scrap some fabulous photos - not just ho-hum ones!! (Now if anyone is actually reading this, feel free to comment and tell me some pointers...please!) Oh and the princess in the picture, was sitting in the rain prior to Craig taking her out the umbrella (and an ice cream!) and so she sat on the top step like this for ages!)

it's over!

Yipee - I do love Christmas, but this year was tight, and that makes me feel crap! But the girls were pleased with their gifts and I've heard no complaining, so all is good.
We've all been sick, apart from T'Keyah, so far, she's the only one that has escaped it - nasty cough, and feeling like junk!!
I got nothing scrapwise for Christmas - nothing, nada zilch!! So I've got myself some stuff hehe - just opened my Xacto knife, lethal looking thing that is too...should have some fun with that one this arvo.
We have the most gorgeous little dog staying with us for a couple of weeks - Bentley has been really good with her (well..apart from trying to ride the wee girl, and not getting it when she snaps his face off - male thing huh?!)
The days are gorgeous lately...we had a spectacular thunder & lightening storm the other night - great stuff!!! I can deal with have a superb day and rain at night!
Rigtho - have to hit the supermarket - our cupboards are bare!

who would've guessed

that panadol suppositories cost so much?! $17.20 they stung me yesterday, thank goodness they work a treat though! Thankfully today, her temp has gone (isn't that along the lines of Murphy's Law...I go buy supplies, and she looses the temp) but she's still coughing and has boogers for africa...ugh!! Hopefully by Sunday, she'll be over the worse and heading back to health.
I'm trying hard to remember to pick T'K up at 12 - I'm then going to head up to Elena's and buy myself some scrapping supplies - call it a Christmas gift! I'm just hoping she's got what my head thinks she should have! LOL
I went to pick up 2 laybuys last night, first one was a total success...second one, not so much - actually they have no record of it at all!! So I threw a wee fit, and walked out! So Molly is minus a dolls pram - and I'm gutted because the shop still has it, but I'm not paying $90 for a dolls pram!! Saw another last night, in a different shop, but it was a little tooooo pink - I love pink, but this was slightly nauseating! So will go and check out a few more shops and prices later on...I think I'm sort of lucky that Molly really has no clue what is going on - oh, I got the cutest thing yesterday for her, an elmo potato-type head toy, which talks! Can't.Wait to play with that one! See him there >>> too too cute! I have to remember to find out what toys need batteries and have a supply sitting here, I hate not being able to use something because we have no batteries. T'K is another kettle of fish - I honestly thought as they got older, it'd be easier to buy - ah, wrong, so very very wrong! I mean there are only so many CD's and clothes one 12 year old can have! I have got her a new duvet, pink and brown no less - and she has no clue about that one - so at least there will be some element of surprise! I don't buy her clothing without making sure it passes her standards - it's so not worth it. Jeepers - only 45 minutes before I have to collect her, suppose I should go and get slightly more organised that I am, and I could sort out the washing situation too - looks like it's going to clear again today and be another nice afternoon - well we can live in hope, it is summer after all!!

Sleeping Beauty

Poor wee poppet, Mops had a good day at kindy, but her ESW teacher commented in her book about Molly yawning and looking tired...and when I went to collect her she looked shattered, was really hot too, but I can't be 100% sure whether it was the heat or she did have a temperature. Came home and stripped her down so she was just in a nappy and singlet and gave her some pamol (via her little butt, seeing as she point blank refuses anything orally! Very challenging little princess!) and she crashed within 5 minutes, and slept for about 90 minutes. Came out from her room (daddy carried her down halfway through her sleep) bright as a button...she has a bit of a cough, but other than that, she's as chipper as!!
Ohhoohh, I got scrapping mail today - nothing better than a parcel full of goodies, but this one is stashed away, it's my little something from Tarisota http://www.tarisota.com.au I can't wait till I can open it! Also can't wait till the credit card is a little less rubber like, and I can shop there and buy myself some yummy goodies!
Had a lovely run-in with the sister in law over the weekend, charming little verbal attack she had for us too....both T'Keyah and I, so needless to say, T'K is slightly shattered by it and has decided to spend Christmas Day with her Dad (after the morning with us) and we've decided to spend the day with Craigs parents...it's ugly! lol
Oh and I'm being brave and have taken the plunge into submitting to magazines...have submitted to one so far (LOL, so very brave!!)

To a dear friend...

today is 10 years since Patrick died...I hate today, I always feel so blue leading up to the 16th...it was nice to see some memorials in todays paper...Greg put one it, I often feel for him, loosing his best mate. I have such fond memories of Pat at school...he was such a character, always out for a laugh, yet he was such a loving and caring person. Certainly a huge loss, one that I wish we didn't have to go through, rest in peace Patrick, you're still loved and missed by us all! xx

Why...

do Monday's seem to be the longest day? And the day that I end up with a nightmare of a headache...the bird can't quit screeching, the dog is barking at his own shadow, and I'm slowly going nuts!

dallas

Oooh - I shouldn't be on here, but I am, hehe. I'm getting so inspired by reading other Blogs, not only to blog more, but most of the blogs I read are scrapper's blogs...I have ideas in my head, but getting them out and stuck down can be a whole other problem! But, seeing as the days are drawing closer to the BIG DAY, I seriously have to get something done!! I'm off to see SIL soon, and getting her to give me 2 favourite photos of each of her sons...I'm going to do scrap canvases....1st attempts and all! Mind you, she didn't exactly have the reaction I thought she'd have over the 12x12 album I did of all the boys last year!
Oh, and if you are reading and you want to see what did kick me in the arse for inspiration here it is http://www.tarisota.com.au/ (edited to add the link, which mysteriously vanished!!)

How the heck do you get out of a funk?? I know exactly when it happened and why - which helps, but doesn't, KWIM?? On Wednesday the social worker from Vera Hayward came over to discuss Molly and her therapy...or lack of said therapy. Molly spends 85% of her session, screaming and trying to get out of the therapy room...and the therapist keeps asking me how I deal with her when she's having a tantrum like that, she doesn't get that we don't have tantrums to that scale at home...it's either the clinic, the room or the therapist, and now hopefully we will begin the elimination process.
So I ended up talking a lot about Molly's diagnosis, or lack of....and it brought a lot of things to the surface, some I can deal with, others not so much.
I was fine all afternoon, kinda, but we got through it....then around 5pm it hit me, and I lost it - it wasn't pretty either, but I was completely shut away and just let it happen...though it flowed into Thursday and I can still feel it today.
Bah...wish it'd go!

the other layout...

I did manage to do two layouts on Monday, but because I was on the final day of the EarlyBird course, I didn't manage to upload it...
I had loads of fun with the sewing machine, and the reason I haven't used the machine on a layout is because I had no clue where the power cord was!
Right, have to fly, have an appointment at the hospital at 10am - thank goodness the woman from reception rang yesterday, because I had no clue we even had an appointment!!

Shell's blog challenge Nov 21st-27th

Name 5 things you would do if you had a magic wand and explain why.

1. Have an endless bank balance, one of those ones that no matter how much I take out, the balance remains the same.
2. Win huge(!) in lotto - see #1.
3. Buy our own house, because I'm so tired of looking at grotty rentals and shifting house
4. Solve the worlds problems (wouldn't that be nice!)
5. shift the weight that I seem to carry everywhere (and I don't mean Molly :o) )

Could it be, possibly, I think it could be....yup, a layout!! After goodness knows how long since I actually sat and completed a page, today was the day. Possibly helped by the fact that it's a) raining like no-ones business b) both girls are home for the day with a revolting cold - whatever it is, I hope it decides to stick around, because I don't mind being able to achieve some results!!

Like I said, both girls are at home with a cold...I woke up far too many times last night, hearing one of them cough...poor Molly was the worst last night. And worst even today, she missed out on Kindy Photos!! I'm really sad, was really looking forward to her photo with kindy - never mind, Trish said they'd try and get a nice shot of her for us, and I'll still by the group photo for her. Right, I'm off to tidy the kitchen, T'Keyah just trashed it a beaut! and then I might even try another layout! ooohh, two in one day!

Well, we made the move - big changes too....Molly gave the cot up (finally) and is really settled and loving her big bed! Sad thing is though, the duvet hasn't shown up yet - was posted back on the 9th - I've still got my fingers crossed though (lets hope it's just slow postal service!!)
That bird is driving me bonkers! Charlie seems to be a lot more vocal since we've moved - and now that he's hanging from the roof, he thinks it's entertaining to chuck seeds at you while you're on the computer! The picture is of Charlie - it's an old one though, he's now sporting a bright yellow head! Apparently a sign of maturity - yeah right! Think someone needs to tell Charlie that!
I should really go and unload some more boxes, but I'm so sick of it!! Think I'll concentrate on my scrapping area, yes area - I don't have a room (boo-hoo) so I've got to think carefully and make it look boring and uninteresting to keep Molly away! Speaking of Molly, she's sitting watching the Holey Doleys (insane little men really) and is copying them being a washing machine! Very cute! Molly, not the creepy men!

and to catch up completely here is Challenge #3

I ask each of you to choose a letter of the alphabet and answer each of the following with a word/group of words that begins with the letter you've chosen... ie say I chose the letter "M"... a color would be MAGENTA, a song would be MONY MONY by Billy Idol and so on Get it? Right here they are:-
1. Name one color. Pink
2. Name one song. Please release me!
3. Name one movie. Pretty Woman
4. Name one vehicle. Peugeot
5. Name one food. Pineapple
6. Name one household item. Piano
7. Name one book. Princess' Diaries
8. Name one scrapbook related tool Paper Cutter
9. Name one animal Pony
10. Name one country/place Palmerston