I had a brilliant day - an all day crop (10am-6pm) and it certainly shook me out of my funk with layouts. They aren't complete, but will finish them off over the next couple of days with journalling....I so enjoy getting out, hanging with people with the same interests and having a break in the child/house routine!! Can't wait until the 26th November - it's the mega all day (10 - 8pm) christmas crop, and they rock!!
Molly is doing really well - she even said UP to me on Thursday after kindy - normally I don't like carrying her (she's so heavy!) and make her walk to the car, but she stood directly in front of me, looked up and said UP - so I looked at her and said, only because you said up, I'll carry you...and she said it again for Dad later on.
We're waiting to find out about the therapy that Molly will get - it's going to be intensive, but that is exactly what I want - I reckon this kid needs a real boost and she'll be coming out with more and more words!
Only one more week until we move - I really can't wait - I'm so looking forward to living in this new place, much lighter and brighter (especially the kitchen, this one is so dark!) and NO FREAKING RED CARPET!! When we first moved here I loved the colour scheme - a rich red carpet, navy blue walls and almost white curtains - it does look quite nice - but oh man, the carpet is a killer with the dog and the cat (both have white fur!!) It'll be so nice not seeing white fluff all over the carpet!

I took some pictures of the wee girl the other day - was quite pleased with them too! She's such an adorable little monkey. That's one of them up in the corner.

I had my first EarlyBird session yesterday...talk about brain ache!! It's amazing how much mine hurt - just shows it gets very little use.
I think the course is going to be great...I'm still in two minds about what my girl actually has/is. After talking and seeing the videos of the other children, she does slot into Autism...but then today, she's totally clued on to everything and the only difference is she's non-verbal. This whole rollercoaster is frustrating the living hell out of me. And I can only imagine what it's like for Molly.
I got some great ideas, and insight from yesterday...kinda hanging out for the next one, which is in another three weeks. Don't really know whether Craigs going to be into it....he's really fucking me off tonight...wish he'd just pissthehelloff!! He's not taken much interest in what went on yesterday, hasn't even looked at the books, much less asked me anything about it - T.V. was far more important. I still suspect Rhys has either autism, or aspergers...but thats something Craig doesn't even want to touch...stupid prat. He'd rather just sweep it under the carpet and carry on like life is perfectly ok...which it's far from! Somedays I feel like I'm pushing a lump of turd uphill with a toothpick...

Looking forward to Friday, having a coffee group, and will catch up with the 'girls' who I haven't seen in months!! Will be fabulous...great bunch of chicks with an instant play group! Great for Molly's socialisation too.

Ugh, I haven't been here for ages, and my head is about to explode....I need to make more effort to come in here and get it out!
I'm kinda gearing myself up for Molly to actually be diagnosed as autistic...I know, I said that the psychologist said she wasn't , but there is a meeting being held on Monday (11 October) and I've just got that sinking gut feeling that it's going to be ripped out (the diagnosis)
I guess at the end of the day, it isn't really that bad...but it's not what I had planned for my daughter, KWIM?? There are days that I just want to bury my head in the sand and ignore it - there are days I just want to leave, and not come back, and there are days that I love and adore her so much it hurts!
I feel so incredibly frustrated with everything - her progress is happening, but I don't credit Vera Hayward, or Michelle with any of it. It rips me when I hear of other autistic children, probably ones who are more effected that Molly, making huge progress. Christ, my daughter is nearly 4 - what the hell happens about school??? I don' t want this to effect her all through her life, I want her to have a reasonably good life, and be accepted, and to be honest, the way we're going now, she's going to be a social outcast!! And that breaks my heart
Christine is meant to contact me after the big meeting, so I'll make big decisions then about Molly's therapy, in particular - changing speech therapists.